“I’m not ok” becomes boring after a while.

So, you change it, you say “I’m bored”. Then, you say “I’m ill”.
Then you make it sound vague, “Sorry I left early, I was not feeling well”, so no one can tell if you had a stomach ache or if your brain was screaming “get me out of this place, everything smells like alcohol and sadness”.

“Your friends will always just be on your way
~Trust me, they’ll die or leave you either way”

Looking at all my active contacts on the messenger app, all my close friends, all my acquaintances, all the people I sometimes randomly speak to, I cannot seem to find anyone who would like to listen to me rant about how “dumb and empty” everything is.

Truth is, I don’t even want to do that.
Truth is, I don’t even know what I want.

“And I’m just getting started, let me offend
The devil’s got nothing on me my friend
All I want is to be left alone
Tact from me is like blood from a stone”

~ Everything is dumb and empty

p.s. optimism had some errands to run, will be back soonish.